I Can’t Go With The Flow

It’s so safe to play along
Falling in an out of love
I want a new mistake
Loose is more than hesitate
Do you believe it in your head?

How do you make a decision? How can you move on when you are so comfortable and set in your ways? Nobody wants to be alone, and if you don’t have to be why would you choose it? I mean yes, I’m single but I don’t have to be….so why am I still single?

It would be easier to get back with someone than find someone new. Wouldn’t it? I don’t have to be by myself and I keep fighting something that comes so willingly and easily. It’s like a piece of cake that I don’t want but I don’t turn it down. It’s handed to me on a plate, a platter even, and I’m being begged to take it, and I do, but I’m nibbling at this one while I look for another piece. It’s not fair, but it’s not a secret and it’s what I’m doing, and every now and then I stop to think about it.

This is what I think about these days, and why I fight it, and why I would want it. The answers…well, they aren’t coming to me. I want to just give up the fight sometimes and let it be, but then I think “How sad would that be?” To go back to how it was? Things end for a reason and no matter how nice it feels it’s still going to be the same.