“If you get really excited about a possibility, that is your soul speaking to you. Do that which sets your heart free and on fire – passion is an essential barometer to measure happiness.”
– Evelyn “Auntie E” Foreman
I Used No Caps
and just to offset the last post, I’ll post this one which is dated March 8, 2005 @ 7:14 p.m.
*sigh*
it’s been one of those days…no, not one of those days but one of those days when i think “i guess the world doesn’t suck balls so much”
i mean i woke up, and that was kind of sucky because i have nice dreams.
then i went to school and had to take a test…but it was ok because i sat next to a boy with pretty eyes and we both knew nothing about anything.
in my finance class i actually knew what the fuck was going on even though i skipped out on class last thursday.
i met up with my advertsising group and schooled them on MP3 players, in a nice way. i like knowing shit.
some random guy stopped me in the subway/MUNI and asked me for my number.
then i get home and the roomates’ kitty loves me and i get an e-mail that makes me happy.
didn’t even have to use my A.K.
Memories Long Since Past
For the past four (almost five) years I’ve kept an online journal elsewhere. Every now and then I like to go back and read the entries. It’s a pretty good time line and some times it’s fun to look back. I usually find myself pretty amusing and wonder why I’m no longer as funny or witty. Of course, now I’m wondering if I’ll look back at this entry and think the same thing.
I’ve decided that I’m going to periodically copy and paste entries from that blog to this one. Just to make sure there’s a backup copy somewhere. The ramblings of 20 year old me can be very entertaining and sometimes enlightening.
Now, I’ve kept personal handwritten journals ever since I learned how to write, but I’ll probably never go and consolidate these into one large volume or even transcribe them into electronic form. Mostly this is because it’s extremely time consuming but also because I’m sure most of it is mundane. Although, there are probably a few pivotal moments in my life of which I’d probably like some kind of personal recollection.
Let’s start with this one that was dated December 1, 2004 @ 8:50 A.M. I’m choosing this one because I feel like this is where I started. This is around the time I started making decisions and learning about things the hard way. Continue reading “Memories Long Since Past”
Half The Horizon’s Gone
I often hear people say “false sense of security” when they talk about people attainging certain material item or even some kind of personal relationship. For example, getting a can of mace to carry around in your purse might give one a false sense of security. Another example, being married gives one a false sense of security.
So, what I want to know is what does it mean to be secure. If everything you ever thought could make you feel better actually doesn’t do anything for you then does this mean everything in our lives is false? It seems like nothing actually makes one secure, so is “security” a made up term, like “love”? (I’ll save the Love theory for another entry)
It actually angers me a little when people say that now, as if they are so much more “secure” and perhaps that’s not even what they intended it to mean. Perhaps they realize that they do the same thing and find themselves feeling falsely secure as well. Still, one shouldn’t trivialize something someone else has so much faith in. That bugs me.
A Lack of Warmth
1. Happy Chinese New Year
and
2. So my space heater died last night and I need a new one.
Yes, I need one. The heater in our apartment has not worked since I’ve lived there and I’m not sure if I know how to make it work. I’m also not sure of how environmentally friendly it is either.
My new plan is to find a thermostatic space heater and somehow frankenstein a solar panel to power it. That’s right, I just used “frankenstein” as a verb, what now?!
Anyone have suggestions on where I can buy a relatively small and not amazingly expensive solar panel? Also a place where I might find information on how to wire it? I’ll need somewhere to store the energy so I’m assuming I’ll have to look into a battery of some sort. I’ll need to connect the panel to the battery, and the battery will have to have a hook up to a female outlet so I can plug in the heater.