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life is all kinds of things

life is all kinds of things. it’s funny, not funny “ha ha” but the other way. it’s weird. it’s sucky. it’s beautiful. it’s a journey. it’s a race? is it about the destination? or getting lost and finding your way again? it’s not a cake walk. it’s a struggle. it’s a fight.

sometimes though, sometimes I tell myself to give up. to stop fighting back. just give up and see what happens. what will happen when I stop fighting it and I just love whatever comes instead of constantly railing against it. things that are making me unhappy, maybe I should just give up and know that this is one of those times when I don’t get to win.

maybe life is not an uphill battle. maybe life is a roller coaster and this is not one of the high points (maybe it doesn’t even end in a high point). maybe I just have to know that even though it’s lasting longer than I’d ever thought it would, maybe that’s just what has to happen. and maybe there’s no explanation for it. there’s no rationale, no reason, no rhyme. all my theories, explanations, and rationalizations about life are all trifling.

while it’s fighting me and throwing its punches, all I can do is take the hits with a bittersweet love for it in my soul.

I think I just stumbled on to the idea of Nihilism, but cozier.

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Everything is still the same

It’s kind of funny, after the inauguration I expected thigs to be different. I kept thinking I would walk down the street and everyone would be smiling and waving at each other, birds chirping, the sun shinning, but everything was just the same as it was before except I was a little different.

I felt like I had just witnessed, been a part of, something really significant.

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Hope Manifested

I was just over at NotCot looking at the photos of the Manifest Hope : DC show.

Reading that post and seeing all this art influenced by Barack Obama was a little surreal. Or at least I imagine it would be to him. The art is all pretty amazing and seeing all of it together is inspiring, no doubt:


from Time Magazine online

photos by crazywanda on flickr ,unless otherwise noted

There was art putting him next to Ghandi, the Dalai Lama, MLK and
President Lincoln and but he hasn’t done anything exceptionally great yet besides get elected president. I’m sure that required a lot of work but still if he just stopped now, it wouldn’t be anything worth putting in the books.

Maybe I’m missing something? Maybe it’s because he represents something different from what we’ve had all these years. You know, change. So maybe this movement is just using him/this as a posterboy for changes that we the people have made and/or are going to make. Why is this different? It seems just the same to me. Is it because we are so, so sick of Bush that Barack Obama is mind blowingly great? Is it because America has just elected our first half African American president and this shows that we are changing? (even though it’s like we’re saying “hey look, race is not an issue… LOOK! I SAID LOOK AT IT! WE DON’T CARE ABOUT RACE!” /will ferrell voice)

I expect great things from President-elect Obama, I think he will need to achieve great things if he wants to get re-elected. I just want to wait and see if he’s really as great as everyone else thinks he is. I admit I didn’t vote for him but I do think he’s a good candidate. I’m glad he’s giving everyone so much hope for the future of the country and hope for a lot of changes for the better. Maybe he will deserve to have a national monument named after him when he’s done in office, but he hasn’t done anything just yet, except maybe make an amazing branding case study.