I went on an impromptu trip to Palm Springs
I walked around downtown in the middle of the way on a weekday
I attended a Dodger game
Peepol Skillz Fail
Seem to be failing on all social interaction fronts.
1. I feel like everyone seems to be annoyed by me lately so I’ll just keep to myself for awhile.
2. I’m once again doing that thing where I might be on the verge of liking someone but the thought being in a relationship really freaks me out. This has really only started happening this year. I wonder what that’s about.
I think it’s more the idea of being locked into something that causes me to go into a slight panic and try to find excuses to dislike a person. The strange thing is that I’ve never had “commitment issues” (which is the most readily available term I can find for it right now) before and I’m not sure what could have happened that would cause me to think that way.
Though, I have a few theories. I’ll need some time to reach a final conclusion.
One Decision
So for about a year or so I’ve been thinking about where I want to move next. I’ve been thinking about my whole future actually but that never tends to work out so well so I figured I should concentrate on my 5, even 3, year plan.
I know I want to explore the world and I don’t really know where I want to settle down just yet. I’ve done Los Angeles, I’ve done San Francisco. So my plan was to try and figure it out. I made up a list of cities that I’d consider living and told myself I’d go visit those cities. These cities included New York (I’ve been there several times before), Portland (check, did that last year), Seattle, Chicago, Vancouver, and Washinton D.C.
The thing is, I think I’m still in love with San Francisco. So what am I doing?
Am I forcing myself to see what else is out there because I don’t want to settle for what I’ve already had? What is more important? Going with what I want right now? Or planning for the future?
So I’ve recently decided that I should just go with it. If San Francisco is what I’m feeling then San Francisco is where I should be. And if it doesn’t work out, I can try other cities. No one is making me stay there forever. Who knows what will happen in the future, maybe I’ll end up in Cardiff or something, but I know for right now, I still love SF.