So leaving seems the thing to do
When I’m here I’m lost in thoughts of you
And in my dreams I’m city bound
I think I live on heartbreak. It’s sad to admit, but I think there might be some kind of closure in finally acknowledging it.
Nothing has happened to me. Nothing has happened for awhile, but I think without someone to feel sad about I don’t feel normal… or like myself, rather. I suppose that’s what I mean by “normal” in this case. I know some people might say I’m negative or a pessimist. The truth is, I do like being happy but “the sweet is never as sweet without the sour, and I know the sour.” I like to live from joy to joy as much as I live on the waning pangs of heartbreak, as strange as it sounds.
Maybe I’m comforted by it because I know this is one thing I know how to conquer. Dealing with the challenges of overcoming heartbreak is something I feel has been the secret, underlying lesson of my life. When I think back on it, I guess that statement is pretty true not just in romantic relationships but in ones with family and friends and the race of life… and things I’ve never felt were fair. Thinking about all the things I’ve let break me and how I promised myself I’d never let them break me again has shaped me into who I am now. I know I can’t be the only one who has put their life together in this way. Someone who has never known heartbreak is missing out on something that can’t be taught.
When it rains, it snows in this prairie town
And we just watch it fall to the ground
And wait for love to come around
So ask me in that way you do
And I’ll leave these fields and I’ll come to you
And watch my heart as it breaks in two