The Truth Comes Out

Daniel called me this morning at 2 or maybe it was 3, either way I was too groggy to look at the clock. He sounds really sad, I can tell because he kept telling me how much he loves me and not to ever forget that. That prompted me to ask if he was ok because it sounded like he was about to go off and rob a bank or something.

I wish he had just moved up here when I asked him to…I don’t know for sure if he would be better off than he is now but it couldn’t be any worse, plus we would at least have each other. I’m making a mix tape (CD really) for him right now, like that is going to make things better.

6:30AM 7/20/04
Well Daniel isn’t as bad as I thought he was because he apparently kissed some girl. I don’t know if this should bother me or not. On one hand he’s saying that if he is “with someone” he wants to be able to be with them. Then right after that he’s saying that he wants to be with me but I’m too far away, but he loves me and yadda.

Close Encounters

Guess who I met tonight?

YES!

Yes, from Road Rules. The embarrassing thing was that my friends told me he was from The Real World.  I didn’t have cable growing up so I don’t know these things ok? I asked him if he was “Yes, from The Real World”…now I feel like an ass. Anyway, he lives up here in S.F. and he was standing outside this bar that my friends and I went to. Let me tell ya, he’s a looker.

I smell like smoke…ok that’s all.

Survival Movie Marathon

I went and saw Fahrenheit today.

When the soldiers were talking about that Drowning Pool song, Let the Bodies Hit the Floor, I was so disgusted. That moment as well as the images of the charred bodies of U.S. soldiers being beaten and strung up like pinatas really stood out in my mind.

I hope that people realize that this is a very one sided view of the story. Well, obviously….it’s Michael Moore’s view of the story. To me it was 80% of trying to make Bush and his buddies look like idiots, 10% gruesome war footage and brainwashed soldiers and the last 10% was uncovering information and links among the government and “the enemy”.

Then we went home and made pizza then went for a bike ride along the beach. Now I’m watching Flashdance and listening to fireworks.

RE: my last journal entry…I’ve decided I want to throw a Survival Movie Marathon. You know get s bunch of people together dressed up in tattered clothes and/or army fatigues, eat food out of cans, light candles, watch movies like
28 Days Later
Alien
Resident Evil
Jurassic Park

but do which if the Evil Dead movies? 1, 2, or Army?

and is Full Metal Jacket like that? I need a war survival movie.

Beyond the Thunderdome!!!

I want the world to cave in. I want the dead to rise. I want a massive natural disaster. I want some kind of science fiction-esque, end life as we know it super-destructo event to occur.

Then we’d see what those bachelor and masters degrees in business are good for.

A Change’ll Do You Good

I’m thinking I want to change my major. Right now it’s business, or marketing to be more specific. I just don’t think I have that kind of business personality. I mean I think I might have fun in marketing but I don’t know if I have that type-A personality and cut throat nature to succeed in that field. So what do I do now?

I was thinking of marine biology…I’ve always wanted to do that. I’d have to be in school for a REALLY long time though. Or maybe history and I could be a history teacher, or an interior designer. I really don’t know what I want.