Imaginary World

So I bought a super lotto ticket the other day because the jackpot was something like $300,000,000 and I started imagining what I would do with that kind of money.

I would give 1 million each to all my co-workers. I think we all deserve it. I’d of course take care of any of my own debt as well as that of my parents and put money away for my sister’s college education.

I’d probably purchase some real estate. A place where I could retire when I get older. Then I would travel the world, go backpacking through Europe, I don’t really want to take the easy road for everything, the money would just be my safety net. Then I’d probably start a couple businesses. Not really sure what kind of businesses but I’d have as much time as I wanted to figure that part out.

This is of course the same way that people find out what they really want to do in life. I was never able to mentally put myself in a situation in which I had the means to do whatever I wanted, so I felt like this never worked for me. Somehow. imagining winning $300 million worked for me.

Thinking about it now though (and realistically) the best and most successful businesses come from people who are doing things that they love so much they would never give up on them. That would be the tricky part. I have the capital to start a business but do I have the devotion to make it a success? I guess I just have to find out what my passion is.

Oh, I didn’t win, by the way. Didn’t match any numbers at all.

a double life

It’s Monday, the 16th at 10:13 pm. I’m sitting on my bed, watching World Trade Center.

I feel like sometimes I lead a double life. In my off time I want to save the planet. I’m inspired by movies, documentaries, blogs, news, and I want to make things happen. But then the work day comes and I sit in my office and work, sometimes never seeing daylight from 9 a.m. until 6:30 p.m. I’m not even doing anything that is making a difference. In fact, lately I’ve been finding myself participating in things that I don’t even believe in. I am wasting my time and thus, my life. I’m trying to come up with a plan. I just need some time.